scared

im scared if she leave me , =(

sweet moment

our sweet moment , love you sayang . plss take a look at it when we had a fight .Think back how much we love each other and sweet that time .hope it last till death come . *jah interframe. hahha



Ans again Thx to jah sbb did it again . -.-" papepun kiteorg syg sama lu la . thee~ =)

W o r d

To Evangaline

Ryuske 77: here
Ryuske 77: by me
Ryuske 77: muhamad idham amir b.azmi
Ryuske 77: will make a promise that
Ryuske 77: will do whatever its take
Ryuske 77: to make you happy
Ryuske 77: because ur happiness is mine also
Ryuske 77: to take care of you till death comes
Ryuske 77: to ensure u get whatever a lover and wife should get
Ryuske 77: to love and respect you
Ryuske 77: to be behind you and support u to do whatever u do
Ryuske 77: to make u feel love every second in ur life
Ryuske 77: and sadness will be our lesson
Ryuske 77: to make our life safer from religon , disaster , money problem and family affair
Ryuske 77: *safer to our religon-meaning is to be on the right path
Ryuske 77: to lead you , so u'll never lost
Ryuske 77: every beat of my heart will remmber this word of honor .
Ryuske 77: a promise to love one
Ryuske 77: a word shall not to be break
Ryuske 77: -end-
suicide.applericka: ='(
Ryuske 77: dun cry
Ryuske 77: this is my word
Ryuske 77: keep it safe
Ryuske 77: and remmber me when im forget it
Ryuske 77: save it by
suicide.applericka: i love you
Ryuske 77: and by
Ryuske 77: this word of honor , is been made for my love one
Ryuske 77: and her name is Nurul Arrienne Bt.Md Yusof

Oh God Help Me *depressed

Why me ? Again and again , i love her with all my heart . And again , money comes first . Yeah i know ppl need that to live , thats what im gonna do if i wanted her in my life . But i hate when , u have to be rich to be with her , hell yeah im crying . da 2x kot camne , gah ! Dont demand on me ! Im not that type of guy that born in leisure life and rich , F C U K ! Now the decision that she gonna make will torn 2 people , me Or her mom . She have to choose , to stay with me or dump me . Its hard for her , and yeah for me also . Cant afford to losing something you've love with all ur heart ,i cant lose her . She the only one i've got . =(

Love Debate

from eryn ;
i cant ignore it. i rather you yelling at me. everytime you wrote it. dd will coment it and asked whether you okayy or not. i dont want her to think that im troubled to you. just like other girls before. i didnt worry if she concern about you. that friends do. but i dont want her to think that im problematic to you. that all.

from me :
yeah , i know that . btw dd just care , not more than that . i know her for years , and yes she will ask me if im in trouble . fyi , i dun wanna be that " guy " again , that always yelling at you . That is not me .

and again

from eryn :
i hate ur stats at ms and fb. i dont know y u post that kind of thing. its like im hurting u. 1st impressions when people read it. why ? is that true that im not that good fr you ? i had kept this thing all my self quite long. and hoping that you understand my feeling. but it never happen and it killing me inside.
okay, maybe its not fr me. its fr your exgf. dude, why cant you just let go and move on? im seriously hurt. what are you trying to do ? let her know that u still remmber her ? urghh ! u make me look soo stupid. if you cant frget her, just go and ignore me. im nobody and not important to anyone.

idham, i know u will be mad when you read this. im sorry, i cant stand it anymore. i cant pretend that IDC. im sorry. i had try but i cant.

from me :
oh baby , im sorry fr what ive said or do on ms and fb . yeah my status make u mad and sad at me . just sometimes when im mad , i rather write it on than yelling at u . Coz i know that u not that kind of girl , i do respect ur feeling but i hurt it all the times . no more yeling and screaming , that day was the last . everything that i wrote is just a sellfish act . do ignore it plss . i do it just to relieve my doubt and anger . i LOVE you SOULMATE .

cool thingy !

hahha
cam ape la weyh . tapi cam best kot .

what past is past

idham amir ! stop think stupid things , just because her ex's is " mat rempit " u didnt have to think what kinda gurl she bfore , and bout going to B.pahat thingy . What past is past , urghhh !!!!!

baby im sorry

im soo sorry coz yelling at you , yeah i know that u **** that day . but i did warn u yang i ta cukop tido and tensen gile . so i TER jerit2 , and rase bersalah sbb buat mcm 2 . i love you

modern love ?

Its kinda funny when ppl that u know fr years chnge to another person , acting weird , less talk and always be alone . And then suddnly bcme happier than b4 , no sci xplaintion fr his situation. p/s : love can change ppl to another person ,love based on money and f.appernce is like selling urself to sum1 dat u even know or love . fuck yeah !! =))

s.o.s

Psat this 3 days , im often talk to myself . Asking to myself , what shud i do and what if . Lost of question that cant answer it , im being like this just bcoz i dun share with ppl when i have problme . And always hanlde my probs without some1 else help , im just keep it for myself and keep on smiling loser ! hahah . Gah ! Why im doing this ? I just feel calm and stop thinkng when im with , yes HER . My love one ,she make me feel safe and always be there when i need her eventhou she doesnt know whats bugging me all the times . hurm , myb i shud tell her or myb not . Just a matter of time syg , when im ready enuff to share it with u .I just dont want my problems bugging u also . Just let me keep it for myself .. sarang hae .xoxo R

DOTA freak

its been a month that i dont talk or social with ppl ,
dun hangout nemore . My life getting empty day by day ,just be with her that make me feel alive and not a zombie . Its seems i dont have anyone , except her . p/s dun play DOTA to much , or not u'll end like me . =(

deep inside

dont hug me if im not "comfy" enuff ,
dont hug me if im "hurting' u ,
dont hug me if finally u gonna "let me go "
coz it will "tear" me apart.. forever ,
..